Dear Lord,

I have been all but non-existence in the consistency of my journal writing.  And that is one of the few things that have kept me sane over the years.  I have been bogged down with so much other stuff lately, that I just pain don't have the time.  I thank you for still keeping me semi-sane.  Sometimes, I wonder why you care for me so much and do the things that you do for me.  I wonder how you manage to bless me the way you do.  A consistent prayer life has also been a no show in my life for the last two or three weeks.  Yet, you still love me.  WHY? 

I missed church last week and my spiritual side felt like it was an eternity until this SUNDAY came up.  So, I am writing this petition to you as honest as I can.  I already know that you have something that you want to tell me today.  I have no idea or even an inkling as to what it is...but I know that it is something that is worth hearing.  I know that it is life-changing.  I know that it is mind-altering.  I know that it will make me a better man.  A better daddy.  A better husband.  A better friend.  I know that it will bring me closer to you.  I know that it will strengthen my family.  I know that it will make me wiser.  I know that it will teach me lessons about myself.  I know all of these things.  Yet, and still, I have no idea what it is.  

My request, oh, LORD, is that you give me the ears to listen to it.  Clean out all the wax and gook and stuff and really allow me to listen to your word today.  Halleluyah.  Allow me to focus and pay attention with complete detail.  Allow me NOT to get side tracked by this or that, by this lady's hat or the devil's trap.  Allow me to sit in the pew and only listen and focus on YOU.  Halleluyah.  Cause I know that you have something for me.  I pray that sleep or hunger doesn't make it's way into my mind or thoughts.  I pray that I don't think about SPOKEN FUNK tonight or the Rodney Perry show and what poem I am gonna do or nothing.  I pray that I don't think about the Lounge on Tuesday or my television pilot that I finally saw.  I even pray that I don't even think about Juren, my daughter and my seed growing inside of the belly.  All I want to focus on is you, you and YOU!  Please allow me to do this!!!

Thank you, Jesus.  May your words fall upon my head like rain from the sky.  Only I pray that umbrellas of doubt do not intercede to block them from hitting me on the head.  I pray that they seep slowly into my brain like seeds of knowledge from the Heavenly Gardens.  I pray that they remain there until I grasp exactly what it is that you want me to grasp.  And then I want them to grow into wonderful flowers of action.  And I want to go out into the world and do what you have said.  I want to live what you tell me.  I don't want to be a man who just proclaims '"OW, What a great sermon."  I want to depart church service with you all up in my heart like veins.  I want to be pumped throughout my body daily with blood of change.  Blood of courage.  Blood of wisdom.  Blood of paitience.  Blood of love.  The Blood of Jesus Christ.  I, thank you in advance for the waht i am about to hear. 

But as for me and my house, We will serve the Lord.

Halleluayh...and aaaaaaaaaamen!

Keep it Natural.